ohhmeegeeitsnicole's Journals on Buzznet http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Long time....]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/1154381/long-time/ So...college...its pretty insane...i haven't been to any crazy parties yet so thats a little dissappointing...Oh and i have no friends, seriously I changed like 10% and they are all like "god nicole, why did you  have to change" and they are being very immature about the whole thing...what 18 year old talks to your 14 year old sister about why i deleted her from my myspace...i deleted her because i haven't talk to her or heard anything from her for over a month, and if i sit there and say "call me soon" wouldn't you call as soon as you got that? i know i sure as hell would, but she is so busy...she works part time as a hostess...and dons't go to school, well, mainly because she is a highschool drop out...so when she isn't working she sits on her ass and plays WOW...and she tells me that she doesn't have any time because she picks up an extra hour or two everyday after working like 3 hours...thats so rough. try going to school every tuesday and thursday 8 am to 8 pm...that doesn't include the time I wake up (5 am) or how long it takes me to get to school, when i'm not speeding. (an hour) and when i'm not at school i work all day...and when i'm not doing any of that i'm probably doing my homework...and then there is the slight change that i'll get some sleep...and its a non stop cycle...and the only days I get off are the ones i request off (which isn't often because i end up doing something that day hense the reason i need it off) or if i don't have school which is only going to happen once this semester anyway. Try that for busy your dumb bitch...I knew there is another reason I deleted you, your a self center don't care about other people kind of person -- minus the kind part. I could continue this rant for at least a thousand more words, but I won't because entries like that are depressing and just make me more depressed or whatever.

Concert 3 days...I'm super excited....Fall Out Boy...i'm in the bowl...so i'm going to be in the front, finally...only after going to see them the first time to be dissappointed by a stupid liar. Its on a friday...not a tuesday....so that means i can stay and try to meet them, that'd be awesome! and I don't have to work until 4:30 the next day!

 

]]> disappointing excited fall out boy friends stupid Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-10-16T06:20:00Z <![CDATA[What this all about?]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/541371/all-about/ Yup...someone stole like 20 dallars from me straight out of my hand.

That was my gas money....that i was going to pay for...

fuck.

anyway...i have no money for the next week. oh well.

Happy 4th.

I saw Shiny Toy Guns in concert. amazing. Got to hang with them for a bit too. awesome.

 

]]> Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-07-04T09:29:00Z <![CDATA[This isn't about you.]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/432511/isnt-about/ I'm looking into my friends I have right now? I've had better, I've had worse. I don't know what to do with them. They don't talk to me, I mean they do but they don't. They say they care, but do i truely believe them when they say it? Not unless they actually back it up. Some of them make stupid choices, I won't get into that with anyone, its just to long and detailed.

I've actually falled back on hanging out with some of my cousins, which is okay, because honestly, they actually know me. We have fun, and they are trying to help me find new friends. Family, wow...I never actually knew they could be that nice.

So everyone has thier problems, and well some of my friends have the urge to make sure they eveyone knows about theres, and makes sure that EVERYONE care about it, and because of this they have become selfish. I have plenty of problems and still sit and ask my friends how they are, and if they are okay. So what if they don't give me an answer, I STILL ASK. Now I do have one friend who might actually ask me, and I know will actually listen to me, well not so much listen but read it...

Does anyone know that I have been clinically depressed for 5 years? Most of you probably don't unless your my sisters...my mom or dad...or someone who has asked. NOw why am I depressed, is where people can start to ask if i'm okay, if i'm alright...anything to stop me from thinking about starting old habits...and yes I've seriously started to think about it, you can tell my parents but they already know. I'm not as well put together as everyone thinks I am, I just can put up a realyl good barrier between how i feel and what i want people to see...but you can always tell, or you should be able to tell if your true friends.

In all of that I bet you just thought of yourself and not of how sad, or angry or hurt I am. Right?

]]> angry friends hurt life whatever Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-06-18T17:43:00Z <![CDATA[For The First Time]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/421361/first-time/ Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-06-17T05:11:00Z <![CDATA[They can say bitch but not fuck?]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/369991/say-bitch-but-not-fuck/ So its the summer, and most normal people would be happy, however I'm not, I bet you could have guessed that from the way i started it out. I'm not liking it because I have no job, i've been looking, and apperantly i'm unwanted, not job worthy, whick sucks ass because I need money for my cell phone (which broke somehow, and its not even worth fixing, so i have to buy a new one), my credit card bill (which is entirely my fault for carrying it with me), and my car payment (which i'm not sorry for at all, i love my car). So i'm pretty enirely fucked, until i get payed again, i'm living paycheck by paycheck, i'm just glad i live somewhere i don't have to for rent or food.

On brighter news, I'm going up to my cabin for the weekend with my family and friends, its going to be fun...at least it was fun that last million times. Then after that i can choose a weekend with my friends to go up there, which will be TONS of fun...me and my friends with no adults, okay so i should be totally like excited, I'm an adult, but still...i finally have the freedom that i've been longing for, even though its kind of late but at least i got it.

Oh yea...i've been babysitting for a whole week...and i have one more week to go. I hope the children i have one day are just like them, these babies are angels. No joke.

Nicole is done typing. Thanks for reading.

 

]]> bills cabin fun money Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-06-09T11:37:00Z <![CDATA[what?!?!? thats crazy...]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/313621/what-thats-crazy/ graduated high school Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-05-31T10:35:00Z <![CDATA[Yea!]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/275831/yea/ Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-05-24T18:44:00Z <![CDATA[Carry On]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/164461/carry-on/ I'm about ready to say fuck it with friends. i don't ever hang out wiht them, i get more phone calls from them telling me they can't go. I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT. They are all just full of disappointments after another. i thought it could get worse after calling and telling me, but now they don't even call. I also can't do the Displace Me thing. it took so much out of me to get my dad to fianlly agree, and now i can't go. I guess i'm just not allowed to go to Chicago...its like nothing or no body will let me go there. URG.

 i seriously want to be happy, i just want to be happy. thats all.

On brighter news, i got a newish car. yes!

 

]]> anger cars depression disappointments friends happy Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-04-27T20:56:00Z <![CDATA[Holy F***ing Sh*t]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/161903/holy-f-ing-sh-t/ so...i'm going to buy a new car.

I was driving around on saturday with my friend Mindi. we were just talking about the play we were just about to watch because my best friend was in it, and we were both just looking at the cars around us and then we saw this clown in a car. it was only so shocking though cause we just don't see clowns driving cars in out town everyday. Oh yea, i'm afraid of clowns so i was freaking out for like 20 mins, not a cool thing when i'm driving down the high way either. anyway...i just thought i would share that with everyone. it scared the living shit out of me.

]]> cars clowns what wow Buzznet ohhmeegeeitsnicole 2007-04-23T16:18:00Z <![CDATA[The Good Ole Days]]> http://ohhmeegeeitsnicole.buzznet.com/user/journal/159557/good-ole-days/ Last week there was snow and this week it was beautiful. whats with this weather? well i'll find out tonight when i watch that 20/20. anyway last night Kaizer and Skiler spent the night. I love those babies. anyway i went outside and played with them for 2 hours. i mostly drew with chalk on our pourch and then jumped on the trampoline. its was good times. It got me thinking that i wish i was the young because they don't have to worry about anything. I have to worry about so much.

I graduate in 35 days, and I'm super excited. I'm also going to see if i can get a loan to get a new car. Mines relieable and everything, but its 12 years old, and its kind of chipping away, literly. I washed my car and the power washer thing was so powerful that it put a hole in my car, where all the paint rusted away. yea my cars that sad.

 

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